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| art by Scott |
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become automated when
showering – not here in self-intimacy, caring for and nurturing my physical
body in a deliberate manner, as a breath by breath movement of participation in
my practical reality.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move myself in a
mechanical fashion while showering, doing each task within a rush, just to ‘get
it done’ and move on to ‘more important things’ – thus missing myself as breath
here – not being aware of my movements; not being aware of ‘who I am’ within
showering, but instead making showering into a ‘menial task’ which I have taken
for granted and disregarded – not seeing the ME-in-ALL things.
I
forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to
see/realize/understand the importance of self-awareness and self-direction in
ALL tasks, especially the tasks that are seen as menial, as it is precisely
those seemingly small/menial tasks that show us ‘who we are’ in ALL that we
participate in, in totality – thus showering is showing me that while I may be
cleansing my body in the physical, I am still allowing dirt as thoughts within
my mind to build up and clog my ability to see clearly and self-honestly what
is going on within myself/my world/reality as a whole.
I
forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider how I am
polluting the water that comprises the make-up of my physical body when
allowing myself to be moved by the grime and filth of mind-energy, which leaves
my waters murky and muddy with thoughts/feelings/emotions/reactions/projections
– and this pollution, no amount of showering can cleanse – only I can cleanse
and purify myself of the pollution that I have allowed within me through
self-aware self-forgiveness here as breath within self-honesty – in every
moment.
I
forgive myself that I have NOT given myself the gift of self-intimacy while
showering, in utilizing showering as an opportunity to see-into-me intimately,
both physically and mentally – in being aware of myself cleaning my body, the
water on my skin, the heat, the soap suds - each part of my body equally given
attention and care – and within this being aware of the thoughts that arise,
the subtle judgments in relation to my physical body, any and all
mind-movements so that in-to-me-I-see self-intimately what I am accepting and
allowing, and can thus then support myself effectively in breathing, stopping
and returning to the practical task at hand – being patient with myself in my
movements – moving slowly, gently and specifically.
I
forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and consider
the danger in not being here absolutely in each breath, in all that I do, and
what this is showing me in showering - I forgive myself that I have NOT
accepted and allowed myself to ask myself the question: If I allow my mind to
take me out of the shower, out of the bathroom, out of this world - into an
alternate reality in the bubble of my mind, where I participate in illusory
thoughts/picture-images/memories/future-projections and thus am completely
nowhere to be found here in the physical – how can I be trusted with Life?
I
forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to ask myself the
question: if I cannot even be completely and totally here as breath in the
small task of showering – how can I expect to purify and cleanse this world
system of the suffering and abuse that has been manifested due to taking Life
for granted and disregarding this physical world and all beings who share this
world equally? Wherein we place more emphasis on the insignificant dirty thoughts
in our mind, than remaining stable here in this physical reality to ensure that
ALL are equally provided with proper sanitation and access to facilities so as
to simply be able to cleanse their physical bodies – to stop the needless death
and disease that has manifested here wherein so many, too many, cannot even
cleanse themselves in dignity and their physical bodies are left to rot and
fester away.
I
forgive myself that I have NOT fully accepted and allowed myself to
see/realize/understand the absolute dedication, commitment and courage it will
take to stop my mind in every single solitary moment to thus be able to make an
impact and change in myself and this world – as I see/realize/understand here
that the dedication, commitment and courage MUST be 100% in EVERY moment: in
the shower, in the toilet, in my room, sleeping, eating, walking, standing,
swimming, driving, cooking, cleaning, painting, writing, speaking, playing,
coughing, laughing, voting, dancing, sneezing, drinking – at ALL times, in ALL
spaces – an ABSOLUTE hereness, because if I allow myself to stray into my mind,
I am thus then stating that which I am clear is an illusion is more important
that Life.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use ‘this is a
process’ as an excuse to not stand fully dedicated in each and every moment –
thus not seeing/realizing/understanding that to use ‘this is a process’ as an
excuse, is to defile the actual process that we are walking as a group in
self-honesty, so as to ‘bide my time’ in my mind. Indeed, this is a process,
yet the process is a full commitment to stop the mind in each moment, NOT an
excuse to postpone stopping until ‘the time is right’ – the time will NEVER be ‘right’
according to the mind, and thus will only lead to abuse and manipulation.
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| art by Ann Van den Broeck |
I commit
myself to slow myself down and be deliberate in my movements when showering –
and to thus within this be here to see what is being shown to me in the shower
as ‘who I am’ accepting and allowing myself to be in what I am doing, so that I
am able to see-into-me and immediately correct any point which is not aligned
to what is best for all through stopping, breathing, forgiving, letting go,
deleting, and walking the correction practically/effectively in my physical
reality.
I commit
myself to care for myself self-intimately while showering, in patiently being
here with myself – ALL of myself - to cleanse my body equal and one as I
cleanse my mind from the pollution I have dumped into my water as thoughts/feelings/emotions/reactions/projections
and to thus then assist and support myself in utilizing showering as a
practical way to bring myself here and support myself in a nurturing manner.
I commit
myself to STOP any and all judgments that arise in relation to my physical body
when showering, and to instead embrace my physical body as all its parts, all
the cells that comprise my physical body – realizing the absolute magnificence
of my physical body and all that must work together so that I am able to be
here. I do NOT allow myself to take my physical body for granted by/through
abusing it with thoughts as daggers I use to stab myself as I see clearly that
ONLY the mind can have a judgment – thus I commit myself to stand equal and one
as my physical body, in full dedication to walk myself out of the abuse that I
have inflicted upon my body through my mind, to thus then heal and restore my
body to its optimal functioning, as all parts equal to me working together in
the best possible way, such that I am able to effectively walk in this world
doing what must be done to create a world that is best for all in an equally
optimal way.
I commit
myself to cleanse my waters through writing, self-forgiveness and
self-corrective application – until I stand here clear as a Custodian of Life:
purified inside and outside, equal and one – and I will not stop until this
entire existence is purified from the contamination of energy.
I commit
myself to expose the atrocity of this current world system where billions are lacking
proper sanitation and basic amenities to ensure a dignified living – and are
instead dying, thousands per day, just because of poor conditions which are
able to be provided for, yet we have placed more value on profit than on LIFE –
I commit myself to show in ACTION that I do not accept this.
I commit
myself to show that another world is possible through being a Living Example of
a New Human Being that in fact Cares for Life - standing AS the solution to a New
World System, as the Equal Money System,
where ALL are provided with proper sanitation and only the best facilities for
washing and cleansing oneself efficiently and effectively – as that is
obviously a basic right, and MUST be given to ALL.
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| art by Cathy Krafft |
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Thanks for sharing! Awesome support!
ReplyDelete" the time will NEVER be ‘right’ according to the mind, and thus will only lead to abuse and manipulation." Great point here - thanks Lindsay for sharing, very supportive blog
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