A Psychologist's Journey to Life

Within this blog I am my own DIY Psychologist - my own Psychological Experiment. Walk with me as I take the 'Psycho' out of 'Logical' & show how we are able to Practically & Commonsensically Walk ourselves out of our illusory Mind & into Physical Reality - here I share the Process of taking Self-Responsibility for each Thought/Word/Deed & thus through Self-Directive Writing transform each 'Mental Disorder' into a Living Solution that is Best for All Life.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Day 58: Judge Not, Lest ye be Damned for Eternity

artwork by Marlen Vargas Del Razo

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully consider and realize that whatever I judge myself for, I will equally judge another for in separation from myself – and likewise: whatever I judge another for, I equally judge myself for – there is not a single difference, as there is no such thing as ‘the other’ (read this blog for further context – Day 51: The CURSE of the OTHER) - within this I clearly see how detrimental this actually is, as I am thus then not able to assist/support myself, nor another as myself effectively when I am still trapped in a point of judgment/reaction in separation, and thus will consequentially squander opportunities where I am able to assist/support myself and another to equally transcend a point of limitation due to making a decision that following illusory judgments are more important than remaining here in reality and doing whatever it takes to practically create a world that is best for all Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully consider and realize that I am commonsensically not actually able to effectively support another as myself if I have not yet eradicated every single judgment within myself, as I see clearly that to allow judgments to exist within myself in any way whatsoever will not allow me to see the specific assistance/support that another requires in any given moment, because I likewise have not assisted/support myself in every moment. I realize that I require being absolutely and totally dark, silent, and empty in myself over a consistent period of time before I am able to be completely effective in supporting another, as myself – without a single point of separation. Thus, I see that the support that I give at the moment, is limited, which is neither right nor wrong, but is simply a self-honest assessment within the realization that the support that I am providing currently is within the accumulative walking of the REAL support that I will be able to unconditionally offer when I have walked myself effectively through the point of letting go, deleting, and fully stopping forevermore each and every single judgment that I have allowed to be within myself and this world – from conscious, subconscious, to unconscious.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully consider and understand that so long as there is a dictator in my head, dictating to me what to say, then all I am allowing myself to exist as is a limited ego – each thought/word/deed tainted with judgment – as I realize to have a single thought, means to be completely entrenched in judgment, as no point of self-trust can exist when there is a voice in the head thinking/speaking/moving on my behalf without question.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully consider and realize that so long as I am still existing within a single judgment, I will still seek in every way for another to agree with my judgment as an experience, thus within this creating/perpetuating the danger of further deluding myself and another into the limitation of experience.

“Fake equality is where peers agree on experiences to validate each other's illusions and then to present this as reality, without checking that the experience in fact is what is best for all life. In this way false experiences are validated in a superior format that invalidates all that do not have the experience. This is one of the fundamental weaknesses of spirituality today, a total lack of self honesty and inability to walk in the shoes of each life form on earth to establish a real physical experience that is best for all life” ~ Bernard Poolman

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully consider and realize how I have used the point of judging others within my mind as a form of distraction, as a diversion tactic, to not have to face how I am actually participating in the exact point within myself, but am instead projecting it onto another so I do not have to take self-responsibility to stop the point within myself first and foremost, as I realize that until I stop it completely and totally within myself, I am not able to clearly see the assistance/support that another requires – thus within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the audacity to dictate to others what they should be doing within a particular point, when I still allow a dictator in my head to direct my thoughts/words/deeds within the same point. I see clearly that until I have walked a point to completion, I am not actually able to stand as a humble example within that point, and thus should not speak until I have proven to myself that I have walked the point effectively and am satisfied with my application to share it with others.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully consider and realize the extent to which I have automated judgment, wherein the judgment won’t even necessarily be coming from a thought or backchat, but will be embedded within the very tone of my voice when speaking – within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate myself as the self-directive principle to such an extent that I have over time embedded judgment into the very physical sound of my voice as an absolute point of manipulation wherein I can claim that ‘I wasn’t aware’ because I did not directly have a thought in regards to the judgment, as it was contained unconsciously within the very sound of my beingness – clearly revealing the extent to which we have allowed ourselves to go in order to compete, survive and win in this world, absolutely oblivious to the consequences of the abuse we accept on a daily basis in the name of judgment as a complete point of separation within a deluded bubble of spitefulness. Within this -

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully consider and realize how important it is to speak self-forgiveness out loud due to this very point of judgement being contained within our voice tonality, and how through hearing the sound of our voice we are thus then able to see where we are still reacting, where a point within the writing we are speaking out loud is still not clear, and where we are still judging words in separation from ourselves – to thus then be able to support ourselves to release these points effectively through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application.

“Do not judge things -- watch the relationships you form with things and you will see the nature of yourself that requires direction” ~ Bernard Poolman

I commit myself to, whenever I experience something in the presence of another, realize that this is a clear indication that I am participating in judgment, and as such I support myself to investigate where I have not yet cleared myself to that which is best for all life in every breath.

I commit myself to become silent, dark and empty within myself so that I am able to trust myself absolutely within my movement here in physical reality that I am not interacting within my world within a single point of judgment – but am absolutely here, stable, directing each moment within what is best for all in equality and oneness.

I commit myself to kill the dictator in my head and to stand here with myself as common sense practical living breath by breath being the only point of authority that I will accept and allow – in myself, in others, in my world, in existence as a whole – equal and one. No More Dictators.

I commit myself to show how allowing judgment within ourselves or others paves the road to eternal damnation, as judgment is surely the most demonic, poisonous and evil form of separation that has ever existed, as it allow us to preoccupy ourselves within our mind, talking venomous shit and secretly gossiping within ourselves, while this physical reality is destroyed and plundered, thousands die a day from preventable starvation, billions are without proper shelter - and this absolute disregard for Life, we will not be able to escape the consequence of - even and especially at Death, where we will stand before existence as ourselves as the ultimate judgment day and have nothing to say for ourselves, because we did nothing to stop the suffering of the countless beings on Earth who are one and equal to ourselves, and thus will face this for eternity: the absolute pain and sorrow of an opportunity to birth life from the physical squandered, because we did nothing to create a world that is best for all, as we were too concerned with a voice in our head to see what we were doing to ourselves.

I commit myself to bring death as judgment day here - to assist myself through aligning myself with all the points of judgment within myself/this world that I have allowed, so that I can one by one transform each judgment into what is best for all, and through this resurrect myself from the death of me as an ego to thus rebirth myself here as the physical, as Life, to thus then direct this reality as equal to and one with me to a world system that values Life as the ONLY real value.