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| art by Marlen Vargas Del Razo |
I forgive
myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand
the importance of when and as an event/situation/interaction occurs in my
world/reality which I am reacting to – immediately utilizing the 4 Count Breath
as an Emergency Tool of self-honest, self-support – before I respond to the event/situation/interaction, even if it
takes all day of 4 count breathing to get myself to a point of stability/clarity
- wherein I support myself to:
Breathe in 4 counts – and while I am breathing, acknowledge the
reaction, and bring my full awareness to the point of reaction.
Hold 4 counts – and while I am at this point of
timelessness, investigate and assess the reaction, both as it is occurring in
the present moment, as well as any past memories/experiences/occurrances which
will reveal to me the cause/source/origin of the present moment reaction.
Breathe out 4 counts – and in this, release the
reaction/the built up energetic experience, letting it flow through me,
forgiving myself in the moment: giving the energy back to the Earth.
Hold 4 counts – and while I am at this point of
timelessness, assessing my mind and physical body to see if there are any thoughts/energy
still ‘stuck’ within me that I have not yet effectively released. To thus then evaluate
and measure the effectiveness of my breathing/releasing, and if I was unable to
let the point go, support myself to continue breathing, and if I see it is not
releasing, then support myself within writing, self-forgiveness, and
self-corrective application: which I write out while still practicing the 4
count breath, until I get to a point of clarity.
When the point is clear – I direct myself to invite the
event/situation/interaction back to test my application, so as to ensure that I
am absolute in my self-correction, directive in my stance, and in NO WAY
directed by an energetic experience.
I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully consider
and realize the absolute and total dedication to self it will take to stop
being an organic robot at the mercy of automated energetic experiences and preprogrammed
reactions. I see clearly to be effective at stopping, will entail practically
and physically accumulating the self-awareness to eventually be completely here
in EVERY single breath, as I realize that to NOT be here in every single breath
is to accept and allow justification and spite to direct me, instead of ME
directing ME as the self-directive principle in and as breath, which is the
ONLY point of stability that can be counted on, as this is the way in which I
hold myself absolutely acCOUNTable for my thoughts/words/deeds, and thus – to
miss even a single breath, is a justification to NOT be here, and to instead
evade my self-responsibility to ensure that each moment is directed within what
is best for all Life – no matter what.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately miss the
necessary step of breathing when I am faced with an event/situation/interaction
which I react to, to instead follow the energetic reaction which I FEEL
justified to follow, so that I can ‘figure it all out’ in my mind, thus
shifting into an alternate dimension, wandering around in the ‘wondering’ how I
can ensure that I am placing myself in a position where I am right, so that I
can survive as an ego - thus then accumulating, one by one, a mountain of
missed breaths which I will eventually be held acCOUNTable for walking through,
one by one – as I cannot hide from self-responsibility, and am thus only
creating a longer process for myself, as I will require walking an entire
self-created mountain, instead of simply and commonsensically walking stable,
here, grounded – each moment a letting go of all that which is not supportive
to who I am as Life, until all that I am is Life – through and through.
I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully
see/realize/understand that this application of utilizing the 4 Count Breath as
an Emergency Tool of self-honest, self-support – will take practice, much much
patience, and time to be done effectively, and that any point of self-judgment
during this process of integration is only making the process longer and more
arduous, and is simply not necessary.
I forgive
myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully trust myself that I
am ALWAYS able to find that point that I am reacting to, in all its dimensions,
within the realization that NOTHING is hidden, and that all will be revealed,
and thus if I don’t see the entire point right away, that’s ok – it will
eventually reveal itself, and thus all that is required is to simply walk here
breath by breath, and direct each point that I DO see, and that I AM able to
direct, and keep doing this: until each point is walked through to completion,
and all is dark and silent within me.
I commit
myself to support myself within the application of the 4 Count Breath as an
Emergency Tool of self-honest, self-support for 21 days – and each time it is
necessary to utilize this application, I support myself to continue pushing
myself to breathe until I am satisfied that I have walked the point effectively
and have fully released the reaction: Earthing Myself Here – no matter how long
it takes. I do not allow myself to respond to the event/situation/interaction,
or to direct the event/situation/interaction, until I am clear in how to direct
it within what is best for all, taking full self-responsibility for what plays
out and all those who are involved, as myself – not allowing self-judgment in
any way whatsoever.
I commit
myself to be patient and diligent in walking each point of reaction that occurs
within/as Breath, and thus do not allow myself to try/attempt to use my mind to
‘figure it out’ as I have seen clearly many, many times that this is not
effective, and only further reinforces the systems and programs I am busy
walking out of, as I am only vindicating their continuance instead of actually
stopping within the realization that to not stop is justifying abuse and
spitefulness to Life, as I am in no way here to ensure that I am standing as
the Solution to a world which is Best for all Life, but am instead only
perpetuating the problem.
I commit
myself to assist myself in specificity within my application within the
realization that NOTHING is hidden, and thus assist/support myself to trust
myself that I WILL find the point, and thus remain here breathing and directing
that which is here to direct in absolute self-dedication to myself as Life,
realizing the simplicity and common sense practicality in this way of walking
myself out of my mind and into the physical, as I will thus then be available
to take on whatever is necessary in any given moment, in any given breath.
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| art by Marlen Vargas Del Razo |
For further support:
Creations Journey to Life -
Heaven't Journey to Life -
Suggest to start reading this blog from the beginning so as to understand the entire scope/context
My Journey to Life -
Day 62: Missing a Breath
Day 55: Self-Trust vs. Memory
Day 54: The Same Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow
Day 43: Is Patience Really a Virtue?
2012 - New 21-Day Breathing-Challenge - YouTube
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(If you get this comment twice, is cause the first one I thought that this is Marlens blog, lol.)
ReplyDeleteAWESOME Lidsay! Many thanks, this is a cool support/reminder for myself at this very time regarding the points I am walking and the 'difficulty' I am facing with.
So thanks again ! I just realized how awesome and assistive/supportive it is to read all others process blogs. I thus keep pushing and commit myself to read others blogs each day for my own assistance and support within my process !
Thanks again !!! Much gratefulness here !
Grateful here. Thanks Lindsay.
ReplyDeleteCool self-support here - practical and simplistic - thanks for sharing this Lindsay!
ReplyDeleteReading it only now - Cool assistance here, thanks!
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