A Psychologist's Journey to Life

Within this blog I am my own DIY Psychologist - my own Psychological Experiment. Walk with me as I take the 'Psycho' out of 'Logical' & show how we are able to Practically & Commonsensically Walk ourselves out of our illusory Mind & into Physical Reality - here I share the Process of taking Self-Responsibility for each Thought/Word/Deed & thus through Self-Directive Writing transform each 'Mental Disorder' into a Living Solution that is Best for All Life.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Day 76: What is Life?

http://eqafe.com/p/the-secret-history-of-the-universe-preview

This blog-post is in relation to the fascinating new series that has just been made available on EQAFE called: The Secret History of the Universe - The Discovery of Light - Part 1+2 - which I strongly suggest to invest in, listen to and self-honestly consider (preview available here).

As I was listening to the interview being spoken in real-time through the interdimensional portal – which to be clear, I was physically sitting-in on, as I live with the portal and just about every single interview that is recorded I am there for – so, within this specific interview I saw a significant point for myself, which was also realized by the beings who ‘wrote’ the tablets translated by Satya in the Library of Alcyone:

Satya: “Now, we get into the point of: what is life? And why even then, these beings, these manifestations, expressions existent in existence - did not even comprehend or understand their own relationship to their own external environment, to their own internal existence of themselves. I mean, what was fascinating in these scriptures, within the Library of Alcyone, was that: they never mentioned the individual beings’ awareness of themselves…

and within this they asked the question, on the tablet, with regards to: why is there, why are we, in an existence that we do not understand?...

They, at that time, did not know even what it means to even look into themselves, to investigate themselves - their own forms, expressions, manifestations…

So they asked those questions with regards to: why it is that they are finding themselves in an existence that they have no relationship with; that they do not understand…”

I forgive myself that I did not accept and allow myself to ever throughout my existence self-honestly ask myself the question: what is Life? To the extent that I would do whatever it takes and not rest until I could answer this question with complete conviction – within this I forgive myself that I instead abdicated my responsibility to discover this question for myself by/through placing hope and blind faith in spiritualities, religions and philosophies which I was never truly satisfied with, nor trusted - but due to extensive fear to actually trust MYSELF to stand up and take on the responsibility of answering the question: what is Life? - settled for, so that I could instead distract myself with generating positive energetic experiences for myself in separation from all that is here - all in order to cope with the fact that I in no way understood this existence that I ‘found’ myself in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, throughout my ‘life’, blindly follow spiritualties, religions and philosophies as if they had the answer to: what is Life? Instead of looking for myself at this world in common sense and directly seeing the evidence within the absolute abuse and suffering that is existent in this world, so as to be able to state: this is NOT what I accept as Life! And thus then do whatever it takes to bring actual Life forth from within MYSELF to ensure that actual Life is made manifest in the physical in every possible way – equal and one, inside and out, as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that this world within which I find myself in, is not Life in any way whatsoever, but is only the manifest consequence of the accumulation of self-interest since the beginning of existence.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to, throughout my existence, be humble enough to admit to myself that I have no clue whatsoever what Life is, in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word Life, within various phrases and contexts, such as: “I Love Life” – “this is my Life” – “get a Life” – “Life sucks” – “these are the facts of Life” – “it was a matter of Life and Death” – “the Love of my Life” – “Life is short” – “running for my Life” –without at ALL understanding what this word LIFE even MEANS, at all – and that I thus then cannot claim “this is MY Life” when I don’t even understand my relationship to/with Life in any way whatsoever, because how can I claim that something is MINE when I don’t even understand it in any way?!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the arrogant and self-deceptive claim: I am Life! – without in any way understanding what that implies.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize, nor fully come to terms with the fact that - not a single being in all of existence has ever been alive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, throughout my ‘life’, submit myself to energetic experiences - as the roller coaster ride of highs and lows, and to within this call that Life and Living - instead of seeing/realizing/understanding that I was in no way Living, as I was in no way the director of my experiences, but let them happen TO ME as if this was all there was to Life – and thus within this I forgive myself that I did not ask myself: who is the director of these experiences? Who is it that is breathing FOR me while I am riding the roller coaster ride of energy?!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, throughout my ‘life’, believe that this external existence is separate from me – and thus then within this never question my relationship to all that is here, but allowed my ‘life’ to happen to me, instead of being the self-directive principle of my life, and through this thus ensuring that I am actually LIVING my Life, both within and without, in equality and oneness with all that is here – as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, throughout my ‘life’, think/believe/perceive that all there is to life is energetic experiences as highs and lows – instead of stopping for a moment of self-honest self-introspection to truly dis-cover: what is Life, really?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe what I was told when I asked the question: what is Life? – thus not seeing/realizing/understanding that nothing and no one can answer that question for me, as I see clearly that I must be able to answer that question for myself, and the answer must be confirmed in a physically-measurable way, or else it is not real – and thus anyone that tries/attempts to tell otherwise, is highly questionable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in an existence which I have no direct relationship with, nor understand how it works and who I am within it, in any way whatsoever – and within this I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to never question why I could not communicate with this existence, nor myself in a direct equal and one manner.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to, throughout my entire ‘life’, genuinely question why I am in an existence that I do not understand.

I forgive myself that I did not accept and allow myself to, throughout my ‘life’, look into myself, to question and investigate myself and what I am in fact doing here – but instead just submitted to the systems and structures that were already laid out for myself, within the belief that this was ‘just the way it is.’

I commit myself to expose all spiritualities, religions and philosophies that try/attempt to claim that they have the answer to the question: what is Life? Yet in no way whatsoever have brought forth a single practical solution to end the suffering and abuse that is here on Earth.

I commit myself to show that anyone is capable of answering the question: what is Life? – if they dare.

I commit myself to show that anyone that claims they have the answer to: what is Life? Yet does not offer any practical tools that anyone is able to walk in an equal manner to be/become Life, is an impostor.

I commit myself to expose anyone that declares: I AM LIFE! – yet cannot at any moment communicate in absolute detail the entire workings and intricacies of this existence, both within and without, with complete clarity and specificity.

I commit myself to show how the Desteni Message, including the tools of self-honest writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - are able to bring one to the doorway of Life, but that each one must alone walk through that Doorway, so as to be absolutely certain that they are in fact LIFE in every way, no matter what.

I commit myself to challenge anyone that is humble enough, to walk the Journey to Life - so as to discover for yourself what is actually means to be Alive – through and through.

I commit myself to show that this Journey to Life will not be pretty, and that it will in fact be the greatest and most painful challenge that anyone can undertake – yet, it is what must be done in order to prove oneself worthy of Life.

I commit myself to show that Life does not require proof – yet, until one can stand here as Life in every way, in every possible dimension, in every single relationship - one must walk a process to determine whether or not they are Life in every way.

“I commit myself to show that the Dream is Not the Purpose on Earth, but that Equality as Life as the Living Dedication and Choice is what was Granted to See who will be Eternal Life, and who is Not Worthy of Life – and will only be Equal to a Dream: Forever” ~ excerpt from Creation’s Journey to Life - Day 73: Living the Dream is the Purpose of Life

I commit myself to take MY Life BACK, such that when I state: this is MY LIFE, I am able to state this with absolute certainty as the Creator of my Existence - as it shows equal and one, both within and without, as a reflection of my absolute standing as what is best for all in every way – because I realize that any other way, is not Life in any way.

I commit myself to answer the question: what is Life? – for myself, no matter what it takes, and I will not rest until I am equal and one to Life, in fact, in a physically measurable way that cannot be refuted.

I commit myself to show that that which is Life in every way does not require to convince anyone of anything – ever.