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I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when a task arises
in my world which requires direction, even consider time into the equation, as
I realize that the moment of consideration of time is a moment where I allow
FEAR to be the directive principle instead of me here as breath, in one moment
making a decision and moving within and as that decision in each and every
moment with my entire beingness equal and one to the task, until the task has
been walked, in whatever way that it is walked, thus not allowing a single
point of judgment to arise - and thus I then seamlessly move myself into/as the
next task – each moment, each task: a single breath: in out – next task, a
single breath: in out – accumulating myself HERE as the self-directive
principle, each breath breathed here a breath breathed as what is best for all
– each breath breathed within my mind a breath breathed as an imaginary
character, trapped by the hands of time: I decide. Why limit myself?
I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to
see/realize/understand that time is indeed the real master of this reality, as
not one single being can defy their time to physically die – death: the great
equalizer – yet, one can surely defy one’s mind at the moment of death and thus
then become timeless – however, I realize the time of death is here while I am
still alive; the time to defy the mind is here: to become timeless while I walk
this Earth – to be limitless within the limitations that are currently in place
here, to thus then walk each point, challenging all that is here as myself to
become limitless, as well - until it is so in fact. Why limit ourselves? I thus
commit myself to show that limitation is what we are deciding collectively each
moment that we keep this current system of abuse intact, as we tack ourselves
to time – nailing ourselves down to the cross of time, the cross roads of that
which came before and that which is yet to come – we decide what will come:
which road will we take? The road that we’ve always taken, which has always
proved dishonest, deceptive, heartless and abusive as it has always and in all
ways been based on the past, as those that came before us, who actually ARE US
- those that decided to separate themselves from equality and oneness here, to
separate themselves into/as a single thought birthed from a memory, or was it a
memory birthed from a thought? – Do you remember?! or will we decide to take
the road that has never been taken, as we walk out of the physical memory that
has been created as this Earth, and into a timelessness, which will require us
stepping out of character, stepping out of the memories, stepping out of the
time machine. Why limit ourselves? Why do we allow so much fear?
I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to
see/realize/understand that until something is so, in fact - it is not so, in
fact – and thus, there is a process of accumulation within absolute
self-dedication that is required to step out of memory, step out of character,
step out of each dimension that I have created through the act of thinking,
where I decided to entertain knowledge as intellect as seemingly innocent
musings which have wreaked havoc beyond my ability to comprehend at this moment
in TIME – and thus I forgive myself that this is what I have decided throughout
TIME, to remain a character trapped in TIME, rather than remaining here equal
and one to all things, as all things, not a single deviation or separation from
all things = TIMELESS – and thus I now see/realize/understand that until I walk
each and every single dimension that I have created, throughout all TIME: I
will not and cannot be life, because until every cell of my body, and every
cell of humanity, and every cell of this world system, and every cell of this
Earth - is equal and one as me moving here in timelessness: it will not be so,
in fact – and I WOULD NOT HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY. That is how I will confirm
with absolute conviction that I am real: until it is so, it is not. I thus
realize that I am not real, that these words that I write, are not yet the
living word, as I see clearly that I have not yet written a single living word;
I have not yet spoken a single living word – because until I am the living word
in every single moment of breath, confirmed by all things, in fact – it is not
so. Thus, here as I write these words I humble myself before myself, and commit
myself to do whatever it takes, whatever is necessary to become the Living Word
as what is best for all Life, until it is so – as I realize that so long as my
ego stands in my way, it will never be so; and I see that the pain and harm I
have created due to holding on to that which I will never get a hold on,
because it has NEVER been REAL, must be let go of – I am the one that decides.
I realize that I will fuck up along the way, as I realize that this has never
been walked before, yet when those fuck ups arise, I realize I am the one that
decides to either judge myself, condemn myself, crucify myself, keep myself
nailed down to time trapped in the past; or I make the decision to keep moving,
never looking back, only looking HERE, as I see clearly that HERE is the only
point that I am able to work with, as it is the only point that I can count on:
breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out …
I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to
see/realize/understand that, although time is the real master of this reality,
I am able to stand equal and one to time, as I created time – thus, I am able
to master time as the real master of this reality – and through this I decide
to slow down time or speed up time: as I am the one that decides how fast, or
how slow time goes, as I am the master of my reality. Why limit myself?
Otherwise, I am a slave – and a slave is obviously quite limited. Why do I do
this to myself? Why do I limit myself? Am I scared of who I would be if I was
limitless? If I was timeless? Am I afraid of the responsibility that comes with
this? Am I afraid of who I would be when there are NO rules?
I commit
myself to break each rule that I have created for myself, as I see that I
created these rules to ensure I would always be ruled by something/someone
outside of me which I submit to without question, which I allow to have
authority over me instead of ME being the authority, as the one that decides –
the ONLY point influencing me being the single point of ensuring all that I do
in each breath is aligned to that which is best for all Life, as this influence
is in fluent fluidity to all that is here in equality and oneness –thus cannot
be broken, cannot be ruled, cannot be contained, cannot be limited.
To be continued…
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