Sunday, July 1, 2012

Day 79: Kill the Buddha - He's Just a Character, Part 3

Continuation of the series:

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 Day 79: Stepping out of Character

A very important pattern to recognize and pay close attention to within and throughout the writings that I have and will be placing here, is the constant and continuous – infinite – characters that I created within/through my existence, which were/have all been created, by me alone, in order to ensure that I never step out of character – as through this, I would thus then see/realize/understand the truth of who I am in equality and oneness – with EVERYTHING that is HERE - in seeing/realizing/understanding myself as creator, creation and created.

So, I implore you to take this into consideration as you are walking with me through these various character stories that I write here, so as to not make yourself the audience of my character-play, but to actually turn this point back to yourself to see where/how/why/what have YOU created yourself to be, as the various characters, which has kept YOU trapped in an eternal loop of THINKING – a stupidity loop – as you were stupid enough to follow an illusory thought, to diminish who you are as creator, to a single thought, that you alone created, in fact, but is not in fact: real –

so why would you create a thought to keep you on an endless cycle of distraction so you never realize yourself? Why not simply LIVE, HERE, equal and one to your creation, in a way that is best for all, as an act of giving what you would like to receive within the realization that: IT’S ALL ME?

This action would thus then be the actual expression of a: care-acter – one who acts in care in every way, in every moment, within the realization that this is my creation, and the creation that I am interested in creating is a creation where I truly care for ALL that is here, as I realize the truth that there is no ‘other’ but there is only ever ME. Therefore, if I see that I have create an ‘other’ then I am able to see: I have created a character and am no longer here, but am instead in an alternate reality, which isn’t real, but it seems real, because I created it in unawareness of myself being the creator – thus, a REAL care-acter is one who does not accept or allow a single character in their creation, as one who is a REAL care-acter REALizes that the character is a LIE, because the care-acter has seen with REAL-EYES, the REAL-LIES of the character, and how the character is only in place to keep one existing in the LIE. A care-acter does not accept and allow lies in their creation, but will ONLY accept and allow the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. A care-acter bursts ALL bubbles - and care-acter kills ALL characters. 





As has been stated: if you see the Buddha, kill the Buddha: the Buddha is just a character. The Buddha is not real. You created the Buddha to keep you trapped in the CON of CONsciousness -- a cosmic joke! Do you see?


For the simple reason, which can be physically cross-referenced as the evidence is HERE, that through keeping ourselves trapped in an eternal loop of thinking, wherein one single thought can and DOES create an entire universe – this has, as consequence, separated us into multiple dimensions where we’re too busy playing out the multitudinous characters created, exhaustively holding this entire show in place, that we have failed to remember ourselves as the simplicity of HERE – and the manifestation that has been birth from this separation: is a world of absolute horror, atrociousness, abuse and suffering….a MESS – because, we have ONLY EVER existed in separate movies in our head, as characters, and in no way have cared to stand up in equality and oneness, to take responsibility and clean up this MESS, so as to birth OURSELVES as Life from the Physical – to create a world that is best for all Life, as ourselves, within the realization that we have Created EVERYTHING, thus we must Un-Create EVERYTHING, or else it won’t be real, but just another Character Show; another song and dance. Is that what you are interested in doing? I’m not. That is self-interest, that is accepting and allowing a Lie, that is what must end in every way.

So, a bit of a recap on my previous posts: wherein I was describing the ‘Meditation Character’ that I was busy creating within/throughout my accumulated participation in Zen Buddhism or we could say Spirituality as a whole – thus, blinding myself by the LIEght, as the energetic experience that comes with ‘building character’. Within this, I also described the ‘Simple Living Character’ wherein I thought that I was ‘making a difference’ in this world by/through for example, not using electricity and shitting in a bucket – not at all taking a look at the very fact that because this all had been created through a character – IT WAS NEVER REAL – and was only perpetuating me as a limited mind trapped in consciousness, thus making NO real, substantial, total difference that is practically-physically equal and one for all Life here, in any way whatsoever.

Thus, as has been stated, stay tuned for the multitudinous mind fuck adventures to come, in the unravelling of ‘my Life as a Character’ – as I walk this Journey to Life; as I walk myself out of being a limited, delusional, insane character in a separate Hollywood picture-show within my own mind, to birth myself as Life from the physical as a Care-Acter that stands for/as what is best for all Life, in all ways, always …


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Day 72: How Faith Exploits Self-Distrust
Day 67: 4 Count Breath as Emergency Tool of Self-Support
Day 50: Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust
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