I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully consider and realize that when and as I start a sentence, especially when it is in regards to a practical assessment that I am investigating and considering, and furthermore when and as this sentence is being spoken about me, WITHIN ME - with: I DON’T THINK I’M… - this statement is in that moment immediately blaring evidence that I am about to base my ability to do something on what my fickle thoughts of failure are telling me and not on what is REAL and able to be physically measured, calculated and tested to determine its in-fact ‘doableness’.
“What will it take, for Man to Hear their own Thoughts, to Hear their own Words, to Hear their own World System, to Hear their History, to Hear their Life on Earth and to See what it Created as HERE, as this Moment, as Now, as Actual, Physical, Reality?” ~ excerpt from the strongly-recommended Creation’s Journey to Life post - Day 179: AfterDeath Communication - Part 28
I now see, realize, understand and have physically proven to myself that it was only by/through me silencing these thoughts - both positive and negative - specifically through the process of writing as self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements then taken to a practical-physical correction that I have already walked thus far, wherein I supported myself in coming back down to Earth to ground myself in breathing through the initial shockwave of my new daily schedule - that I was actually able to walk my new schedule HERE in self-responsibility, to thus make a measurable assessment, which I am currently still walking in regards to ‘ironing out the kinks’ and really taking a look at what I am able to take on, and what I am able to let go of without any sort of emotional/feeling-based energetic reaction attached to it – which I see clearly, if I hadn’t already been walking this point of self-supportive writing in regards to this, would have been much more difficult and arduous.
Thus, I commit myself to continue to show myself and others, through sharing my process in writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and standing as an example – how I was able and am still in the process of enabling myself to Earth-myself and walk this point through in a practical-physical manner that has actually already proven to facilitate my self-expansion and self-discipline in directly revealing to me what it is to follow-through and persevere simply by sticking to the basics of breathing, self-investigation, self-writing, self-responsibility and self-intimacy as self-into-me-I-see: in not allowing myself to just simply accept what is thrown at me by my mind as if it is valid, but to instead get to know myself, specifically through HEARING/HEREING these thoughts as backchat – to stand equal to these words inside of me, to investigate why I have, within and throughout my life, accepting this form of insanity and self-diminishment to direct me; why I have created these voices in my head to talk me into or out of each situation I find myself in – so that I can, through this process of ‘man know thyself’, take my life back into my own hands, as I have seen through the lies once and for all and thus am no longer moved by a single thought, but am 100% the self-directive principle, no longer influenced by anything/anyone, but directly here to move AS the universe – equal and one – with each breath in absolute self-trust AS absolute self-trust, which is beyond any concept of self-trust, but is the actual living expression thereof.
And thus, from here on out – when and as I see myself in a situation of/as a change in my daily schedule wherein I am not longer able to say with certainty that I am able to walk all of my responsibilities practically – I first stop and breathe – bring myself back HERE, and do not accept nor allow myself to make any decisions until I have practically walked the point for a given/allotted period of time which will be assessed in self-honesty and deliberate consideration of all the potential outflows and consequences that this change in my new schedule may manifest – this, so I am able to curtail any unnecessary consequences and take self-responsibility for any and all play-outs that occur along the way simply because I was HERE within the entire process as decision-making and am thus able to direct each point in a stable manner as an actual fully-integrated expression of myself moving myself in what is required without emotions or feelings, but only with mathematical breath by breath precision within what is best for all Life.