This post is part of a series:
Thus, for the purpose of context, suggest reading these
posts above prior to reading the post below.
Now I will begin exploring the topic of genetics. The
particular points that I will be looking at and sharing within the next several
posts will include:
· Firstly, writing out, forgiving and correcting the separation I have accepted and allowed within and as myself in relation to genetics in general· Then, specifically exploring genetics and how one’s environment impacts how one’s genes are expressed, which I will share in relation to my rudimentary studies in relation to epigenetics, of which I will go into more detail in further posts in the future, as I learn and expand more within this topic· Lastly, I will bring in the question that was initially posed in my first post on this topic: Day 214: DTC Genetic Testing and the Human Mutant – in regards to whether or not DTC Genetic testing should be available to consumers ‘over the counter’.
Alright, so what I have seen within and throughout this
journey thus far, in terms of the points that were triggered in relation to
this topic of genetics – is that very basic, essential fact: I have extensively
separated myself from my own body to such an extent that I have been viewing
genetics as some ‘topic’ that resides ‘out there’ for me to study/learn about;
not something HERE AS ME of which I am able to develop an equal and one
relationship with.
So, when I slowed this whole point down again, that is
the fundamental realization that came through above all else - because what I
saw is how I had made genetics into something MORE than ME, which is
fascinating and quite laughable, seeing that this IS ME, lol – thus showing the
separation that occurs when we split ourselves into consciousness as personalities
instead of looking at things HERE directly, within our current understanding,
and walking a point through breath by breath to expand our understanding until
it becomes an equal and one amalgamation – through and through – which
certainly takes being humble.
Therefore, this really stands as an example of how
disconnected we have become from the physical, starting with our very own
physical bodies; wherein we really have no clue, and have actually severely
taken for granted, the physical process that must occur in order for us to go
about our day to day functioning – or moreover, has allowed us to even BE HERE
at all! I mean, this is quite disconcerting, and as such is a point that I
commit myself to walk through and establish for myself in correcting the split
personality as consciousness that I have accepted and allowed to stand between
ME and ME.
Also realizing that none of the current information that
is being and has been produced and made available in regards to the scientific
understanding of the functioning of the physical body can be trusted, as I
mentioned in my post from Day
215 – yet also realizing that I must take responsibility for the
information that is here; thus not rebelling against it, or rejecting it, or
discounting it – but walking each point through, as myself, to an ultimate
expression of equality and oneness as what is best for all.
Each of these points that I’ve mentioned were significant
factors in my initial reactions to this seemingly daunting topic simply because
I was approaching it in separation, thus only looking and investigating the
point through my memories as knowledge and information (consciousness) that I
have collected/accumulated within myself throughout my life. Thus I ‘gathered’
that our genes are quite crucial components in determining who we are, but instead
of getting to understand this, I made it into an immensity of which I decided I
could not understand (learned
helplessness).
And like I stated the closing of day 215:
So here I am
clarifying my starting point of this series, in that I understand that I am
still very much steeped in my own self-concocted brew of consciousness and thus
this is a process of self-responsibility for me to walk through in taking what
is already here, as the knowledge and information that exists within this world
currently – and bring it ALL back to myself – getting to know what is currently
being and has been accepted and allowed within this point of genetics
specifically, and thus equally through this get to know myself, as everything
that is here is merely showing me and reflecting back to me: ME.
I realize that I must walk through each of these layers
of consciousness
– yet, in a self-directed manner – because now I have proven to myself quite
starkly how NOT to walk a point, which I am quite grateful for, as now my
approach is one of clarity and not reaction; simply because I now see much more
clearly just how easy it is to get ‘carried away’ instead of remaining stable
and walking a point breath
by breath, and that is absolutely literal, because if we miss a single physical
breath we instantly enable ourselves to fall right back into the pattern we are
walking out of, and I mean that just makes things much more difficult than they
need to be. Walking this process really is like walking on a razor’s edge, as
it is a fine line between physical self-awareness
and self-delusion within consciousness, making it so easy to lose our way
while at the same time making it so easy to realize that our ‘way’ is always
HERE.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my own physical body and my physical body’s functionings to such an extent that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am unable to understand and thus develop an equal and one communication with and as my physical body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus then believe that I must study knowledge and information to get to an understanding of how my physical body functions, as if this is the only way that I will be able to understand – instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that everything about who I am is already here and is able to be understood in absolute detail simply through me walking myself out of this bubble of consciousness that I have trapped myself in with the consequence being that I have caused myself to exclude myself from a direct understanding of this physical reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my own physical body and my physical body’s functionings to such an extent that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am unable to understand and thus develop an equal and one communication with and as my physical body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thus then believe that I must study knowledge and information to get to an understanding of how my physical body functions, as if this is the only way that I will be able to understand – instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that everything about who I am is already here and is able to be understood in absolute detail simply through me walking myself out of this bubble of consciousness that I have trapped myself in with the consequence being that I have caused myself to exclude myself from a direct understanding of this physical reality.
Within this: I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to resist learning and studying the current system understanding
of how the physical body functions and genetics in particular due to accepting
and allowing myself to want/desire to evade my point of responsibility in
correcting what is here, in realigning what is here to a starting point of
equality and oneness within what is best for all life – thus I now realize how
I was essentially wanting/desiring to rush through this process and thus ‘jump
the gun’ in shooting myself right into the physical, which is quite an apropos
analogy because I have come to realize that this approach is indeed quite unnecessarily
painful as I am placing myself in a dangerous position of self-denial in
refusing to come to terms with MY
CREATION and how I must first walk through the mess of my creation before I
am able to establish a REAL life and living HERE – and I place REAL in capital
letter because I realize that if I do not walk each point through, step by
step, taking responsibility for it, then I will only keep re-creating the same
shit; keep re-creating a consciousness infinity loop accumulating consequence
in the most terrifying of ways.
Thus, I realize and see clearly that my walking must be
REAL in every way – and only I can determine what REAL is through an actual
process of self-honest, self-investigation and self-forgiven self-correction – which
thus makes everything quite interesting when I
AM THE ONE THAT DECIDES, because we come to realize that there are no
instruction manuals, there are no rules, and there are no limitations but that
which we place on ourselves, yet we also realize that, although there may be NO
rules, there is also ONE rule and that is: what is best for all Life RULES.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
to, due to separating myself from the words genetics, genes, epigenetics, genome, DNA,
chromosomes and the like – come to determine within my self-created ignorance
that these words = complex, thus making these words synonymous with difficult –
and furthermore because of this, accepting
and allowing myself to create/generate/perpetuate a relationship
of resistance to these words as if these words were entities in themselves
which could do something TO ME, wherein I gave my self-directive power away to
these words – DELIBERATELY – and it was indeed deliberate because when I
investigate it in self-honesty I see
clearly how this was a deliberate action of trying/attempting to evade
responsibility through claiming that I am unable to understand what these words
represent in physical reality, thus apparently meaning that I can just remain
in my ignorance and within this hope
that these words will essentially just ‘go away’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when and as I made the decision to get to know these words, also approach this process through the starting point of separation, thus still giving these words power over me – wherein I took the ‘getting to know’ of these words and made this ‘getting to know’ into a positive energetic experience of thinking/believing/perceiving that now that I am ‘getting to know’ these words that now me and these words are somehow becoming friends – meaning I was still approaching these words as entities and formulating more relationship ties with these words instead of walking equal and one with these words as myself here, which means the ‘getting to know’ would me the ‘getting to know’ of MYSELF.
Also within this – I forgive myself that I, through this ‘friendship process’ with these words – accepted and allowed myself to try/attempt to take the power of association that I believe I was establishing through becoming friends with these words, and through this believe that I was superior because I was ‘hanging out’ with these words – I mean, this is quite a ridiculous delusion – yet, this is how we do this. This is how we separate ourselves from even words through creating relationships with words in separation from ourselves, thus making words into either our friends or our enemies or even sometimes our frenemies – we can see this clearly through how we react either positively or negatively to certain words in certain contexts; it all has to do with relationships, and these relationships are what must be investigated and brought to a point of correction through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application through practical physical living - because we’ll see through this just how enslaved we are to our experiences, and just how much we have abdicated ourselves as the self-directive principle of ourselves and our living to consciousness, wherein the decisions we make ‘for ourselves’ are rarely if ever made ‘for ourselves’ as who we really are here, and most always made ‘for our mind’ as who we are within energetic experiences that tug and pull us like a puppet on a string throughout our ‘life’ – I mean, can that in any way be called LIVING: no way!
I commit myself to remain humble here and really get to know myself as my human physical body in a way that is best for all – wherein I simultaneously walk through the knowledge and information that is here as consciousness creations, while I am birthing myself as Life from the physical – equal and one – as this is the only way that it can be done, because again: we cannot jump the gun, or we’re gonna get ourselves hurt.
I commit myself to apply myself within self-discipline and self-focus in these particular studies in relation to genetics, along with all my studies, approaching each point here within the realization and understanding that this is all a reflection of me and thus does not have to be difficult, but also realizing that it will take some time to fully re-align myself with this – as I realize I have been living in separation from HERE for a loooooooooooooooooooong time, thus it will take a lot more than just realizing that ‘everything is here’ for me to actually live this understanding into an equal and one expression of who I am. Thus yes, it is a process – yet, I am the one that decides how difficult this process will be; I am the one that decides if/when I will slip on the razors edge and therefore I am the one that decides how long it will take me to ‘recover’ from my self-inflicted wounds.
I commit myself to stand equal and one to the words genetics, genes, epigenetics, genome, DNA, chromosomes and any and all words that describe our genetic material and through this create a self-honest relationship with each of these words that is established here as myself, wherein I no longer accept and allow myself to experience myself as positively attracted or negatively repelled by these words – but simply commit myself to assist and support myself to cut all energetically created relationship ties with these words that have been formed through separation and thus through my mind, and instead give myself the gift of starting over and thus getting to know these words as what they are expressing here in a stable and consistent manner, and through this integrating each expression as an equal and one expression of myself: no separation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when and as I made the decision to get to know these words, also approach this process through the starting point of separation, thus still giving these words power over me – wherein I took the ‘getting to know’ of these words and made this ‘getting to know’ into a positive energetic experience of thinking/believing/perceiving that now that I am ‘getting to know’ these words that now me and these words are somehow becoming friends – meaning I was still approaching these words as entities and formulating more relationship ties with these words instead of walking equal and one with these words as myself here, which means the ‘getting to know’ would me the ‘getting to know’ of MYSELF.
Also within this – I forgive myself that I, through this ‘friendship process’ with these words – accepted and allowed myself to try/attempt to take the power of association that I believe I was establishing through becoming friends with these words, and through this believe that I was superior because I was ‘hanging out’ with these words – I mean, this is quite a ridiculous delusion – yet, this is how we do this. This is how we separate ourselves from even words through creating relationships with words in separation from ourselves, thus making words into either our friends or our enemies or even sometimes our frenemies – we can see this clearly through how we react either positively or negatively to certain words in certain contexts; it all has to do with relationships, and these relationships are what must be investigated and brought to a point of correction through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application through practical physical living - because we’ll see through this just how enslaved we are to our experiences, and just how much we have abdicated ourselves as the self-directive principle of ourselves and our living to consciousness, wherein the decisions we make ‘for ourselves’ are rarely if ever made ‘for ourselves’ as who we really are here, and most always made ‘for our mind’ as who we are within energetic experiences that tug and pull us like a puppet on a string throughout our ‘life’ – I mean, can that in any way be called LIVING: no way!
I commit myself to remain humble here and really get to know myself as my human physical body in a way that is best for all – wherein I simultaneously walk through the knowledge and information that is here as consciousness creations, while I am birthing myself as Life from the physical – equal and one – as this is the only way that it can be done, because again: we cannot jump the gun, or we’re gonna get ourselves hurt.
I commit myself to apply myself within self-discipline and self-focus in these particular studies in relation to genetics, along with all my studies, approaching each point here within the realization and understanding that this is all a reflection of me and thus does not have to be difficult, but also realizing that it will take some time to fully re-align myself with this – as I realize I have been living in separation from HERE for a loooooooooooooooooooong time, thus it will take a lot more than just realizing that ‘everything is here’ for me to actually live this understanding into an equal and one expression of who I am. Thus yes, it is a process – yet, I am the one that decides how difficult this process will be; I am the one that decides if/when I will slip on the razors edge and therefore I am the one that decides how long it will take me to ‘recover’ from my self-inflicted wounds.
I commit myself to stand equal and one to the words genetics, genes, epigenetics, genome, DNA, chromosomes and any and all words that describe our genetic material and through this create a self-honest relationship with each of these words that is established here as myself, wherein I no longer accept and allow myself to experience myself as positively attracted or negatively repelled by these words – but simply commit myself to assist and support myself to cut all energetically created relationship ties with these words that have been formed through separation and thus through my mind, and instead give myself the gift of starting over and thus getting to know these words as what they are expressing here in a stable and consistent manner, and through this integrating each expression as an equal and one expression of myself: no separation.
To be continued…
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