Here within this post and the posts to follow I am
supporting myself in relation to focus, particularly within my studies and more
specifically within the readings that are assigned for each of my courses wherein
I require to sit for long periods of time to really give myself the ability to
walk a section through and ensure that I am grasping the material, connecting
the dots beyond the concepts that are being relayed so as to integrate the
material in such a way that transforms the words on the page into an equal and
one expression; an expression of who I am living the words as I have given myself the time,
patience and steadfastness to challenge myself to see between the lines, to ask
questions, and to push myself to investigate what might be missing or may not
be taken into consideration within the particular material I am working with –
as the way in which I see studying to be most effective, as well as the way in
which I support myself in taking responsibility for my world, wherein I commit
myself to not just study for the sake of studying, to not just accept the material
so I can just ‘get it over with’ or whatever else, but to see this as a point
to be sorted out with deliberation because it is here and I’m walking it, it’s
in my world, so it’s my responsibility to walk it properly and ensure that when
I see something in my world that is not aligned to what is best for all life, I walk
it through for myself to see how I am able to make it so.
The point that I’ve noticed, and which is the point that
I’m here to direct within this post and the posts to come, is a tendency to
when I sit down to do my reading at the various allotted times throughout my
day, I will eventually miss a breath and accept and allow my focus to wane wherein
I become susceptible to drifting off and at times will experience a pull-like
sensation, as the force of the entity I have created for these such situations
to pull me away from my focus, to distract me with ‘other things’ so that I do
not remain fully here within and as the task at hand in walking it through to completion.
It was stated in my Human Development class last term
that, when we are focused on a task and that task get interrupted, it takes us
humans on average 7 minutes to get our attention refocused on what it is that
we’re busy doing. This is pretty interesting and a point that I have been
considering as I become more acutely aware of these self-induced interruptions
and that, when we accept and allow ourselves to distract ourselves every few
minutes, which is a tendency of human beings as a whole since we spend about
99.99999% of our day in our mind - according to this ‘7 minutes task theory’
this means that we’re never truly focused on what it is that we’re doing, simply
showing how disconnected we’ve become from who we are within what we do because
we tend to approach what we do in separation through our mind only and thus
from the get-go we already accept inadequacy.
I find this point to be similar to the menial task point
I wrote quite a while back in this Journey to Life blog – Day
27: The ME in Menial Tasks – wherein, this seemingly simple/menial point of
reading when not directed properly and integrated as an actual expression of
who I am, sabotages my ability to walk myself through the reading material so
as to be able to comprehensively connect the material to the ‘big picture’ – to
be able to see the entire point in all its multiple dimensions, both big and
small, and to bring each dimension here to walk it through to a self-realized
insight that I can thus speak and express as myself without the crutch of
memorization and ‘cramming’.
I realize that, in order to excel in this particular
field of psychology, or in whatever I do for that matter, I must push myself
through and beyond any single limitation that comes my way because I see that
it’s not about what I am doing, it’s about who I am within what I am doing in
each moment of breath. This is precisely why I am here to write this point out,
because I see that there are particular inconsistencies in my living of the
word ‘focus’ that aren’t yet in full alignment and that require to be so that I
stop holding myself back from the potential that I am able to become. And what
I see is that, if this point of me ‘drifting away’ is happening within this one
point of reading, it is happening to varying degrees within all that I do,
within all that I am – and that this aspect of me reading for my courses is
simply the point that I am seeing it being expressed as at the moment – and so,
I will use this point that is showing itself here to assist and support myself
in walking out of distraction and into the absolute expression of focus as a
lived decision to not accept anything less than my fullest potential, to not
accept anything less in this one life than to be extraordinary.
In the next post I will begin the self-forgiveness and
self-commitment process – stay tuned…
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